The joy of iTunes/iPod randomness

I was struck by a wonderful segue that iTunes yielded from my iPod this morning, and thought I would share...

"It's My Life" by Talk Talk
(one of my favorites from the 80s)

Funny how I find myself
in love with you
If I could buy my reasoning
I'd pay to lose

One half won't do

I've asked myself
How much do you
commit yourself?

It's my life
Don't you forget
It's my life
It never ends (It never ends)

Funny how I blind myself
I never knew
If I was sometimes played upon
Afraid to lose

I'd tell myself
What good you do
Convince myself

It's my life
Don't you forget
It's my life
It never ends (It never ends)

I've asked myself
How much do you
Commit yourself?

It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
it never ends
It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
it never ends

It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
it never ends

Followed immediately by this:

"Getting Better" by The Beatles

It's getting better all the time
I used to get mad at my school
The teachers who taught me weren't cool
You're holding me down, turning me round
Filling me up with your rules.

I've got to admit it's getting better
A little better all the time
I't can't get no worse
I have to admit it's getting better
It's getting better since you've been mine.

Me used to be a angry young man
Me hiding me head in the sand
You gave me the word
I finally heard
I'm doing the best that I can.
I've got to admit it's getting better
A little better all the time
I't can't get no worse
I have to admit its getting better since you've been mine
Getting so much better all the time
It's getting better all the time

Better Better Better

It's getting better all the time

Better Better Better

I used to be cruel to my woman
I beat her and kept her apart from the things that she loved
Man I was mean but I'm changing my scene
And I'm doing the best that I can.

I admit it's getting better
A little better all the time
It can't get no worse
Yes I admit it's getting better
It's getting better since you've been mine
Getting so much better all the time
Its getting better all the time
Better Better Better

Its getting better all the time
Better Better Better
Getting so much better all the time

The combination of these two songs, and singing them at the top of my lungs, makes me feel like I can face just about anything today. This is a beautiful thing.

In good voice

I'm in the phone booth, it's the one across the hall
If you don't answer, I'll just ring it off the wall
I know he's there, but I just had to call
Don't leave me hanging on the telephone
Don't leave me hanging on the telephone
I heard your mother now she's going out the door
Did she go to work or just go to the store
All those things she said, I told you to ignore
Oh why can't we talk again
Oh why can't we talk again
Oh why can't we talk again
Don't leave me hanging on the telephone
Don't leave me hanging on the telephone

It's good to hear your voice, you know it's been so long
If I don't get your call then everything goes wrong
I want to tell you something you've known all along
Don't leave me hanging on the telephone

I had to interrupt and stop this conversation
Your voice across the line gives me a strange sensation
I'd like to talk when I can show you my affection
Oh I can't control myself
Oh I can't control myself
Oh I can't control myself
Don't leave me hanging on the telephone

Hang up and run to me
Whoah, hang up and run to me
Whoah, hang up and run to me
Whoah, hang up and run to me
Whoah oh oh oh run to me
Hanging On The Telephone

~ "Hanging On The Telephone" by Blondie

I just want to talk to him all the time. Even when we talk about what seems like nothing, I enjoy listening to the timbre of his voice, the lilt in the way he speaks, the way we poke fun at one another.

I love the fact that there are nights when we are the last people each of us speak to before we go to bed.

I know when the phone rings after a certain time of night, odds are that it's him, and I stop myself from answering it on the first ring.

It cracks me up that he's the only person that I've talked to for so long in a stretch, that my phone battery is getting ready to die before we're ever ready to hang up—and that's with a full charge on it!

He has found his way into my mind, and it scares me... in a heart fluttering, exciting sort of way.

Man-oh-man.

Random Thoughts: Tuesday, May 27, 2008

For as long as I can remember, my dark/colored wash outnumbers my light/white wash by at least double. Why is that? Is it that I have an aversion to wearing light colors?

The way a relationship forms

I have a question...

Why is it that there are some relationships that seem to be an instant "click" between two people, whereas others come from a "slow burn" that develops between two people?

I don't seem to be the sort of person that has ever entered into a relationship quickly, even if there is a connection. More often than not, a connection like that has become a friendship that has sometimes evolved into a relationship. I have always thought that this is preferable, being that I have entered into a relationship with my eyes a little more "open" to who the other person really is, but perhaps I've been wrong. Perhaps the way to find a partner is to find someone that I'm immediately drawn to, involved with, and with whom I dive into a relationship head first. I see it happening for other people, and I wonder if I've been doing things wrong all of these years.

Maybe I have too many barriers up, too many reasons to feel like I can't enter into something that quickly. I'd like to think that I'm still very much open to love's (and life's) possibilities, but could it be that I'm not?

Where is my mind?

Ooooooh - stop

With your feet in the
air and your head on
the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
But there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?

Way out in the water
See it swimmin'?

I was swimmin' in the Carribean
Animals were hiding behind the rock
Except the little fish
But they told me, he swears
Tryin' to talk to me coy koi

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?

Way out in the water
See it swimmin'?

With your feet in the
air and your head on
the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
If there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?

Ooooh
With your feet in the
air and your head on
the ground
Ooooh
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Ooooh
Ooooh

~ "Where Is My Mind" by The Pixies

I keep wanting to start a blog entry, but then I realize that there's not really much to say.

I'm finding myself in a state of flux right now. Like I'm juggling and have got a whole bunch of balls up in the air that haven't come down yet. With that said, here are a bunch of things that have been happening, will be happening, or are on my mind:

• One of my dearest friends has moved away. He was originally going to California, but he's going to be in Upstate NY for a couple of months first. Although I didn't see him all that much while he was still living down here, it's still a strange thing to think about.
  
  
• My best friend and her fiancé are moving. Staying in the same city, but moving into a different house. Then, they get married in July.
  
  
• My paycheck for this past month is late.
  
  
• I have yet to receive a contract for next school year, and this worries me being that I've been asking about it for months. It's not that I think they don't want me back (they already have me scheduled for a full course load for fall), but it's still extremely disconcerting that this is not squared away yet.
  
  
• I'm going to two concerts this weekend.
  
  
• I have an early flight to Boston on Monday to attend the HOW Design Conference for a couple of days. I will have the opportunity to see one of my former students that graduated and moved up North.
  
  
• The day after I get home, I have two friends coming into town for Memorial Day Weekend.
  
  
• There are some people that just seem to grate on my last nerve lately.
  
  
• My love life... or lack thereof, is not good for me.
  
  
• My Father is going to be having surgery, and I wish he'd just schedule it already so I can begin preparing for it.
  
  
• One of my dearest friends is coming to the state of Florida, and I can't wait to see her... and then see her again when I head out to her place in July.
  
  
• Another dear friend of mine is getting married. Actually, a pair of my dear friends are marrying each other.
  
  
• I probably should have taken the summer off instead of agreeing to teach some classes, but the lure of the extra money was too great.
  
  
• I do believe a crush that I have will remain a crush. As compatible as we are in some ways, there are just some ways we're a little less compatible. Probably best to be left as a friendship.
  
  
• I'm taking a trip out to Texas in the middle of the summer to see another one of my dearest friends. She'll be in Texas for a month while she gets a new house she and her husband bought in order. They're the ones that currently live in Hong Kong.
  
  
• I don't know if the change in diet and exercise that I made months ago is doing anything to help improve my health.
  
  
• Sometimes I'm so jealous of some people, I could scream.
  
  
• Other times, I realize that I don't necessarily want the life that they're making for themselves.
  
  
• I've started going to yoga once a week. I'm hoping that once I build up a little better balance, I'll start going more than once a week.
  
  
• The song "Don't You Evah" by Spoon makes me chair dance.
  (Can you tell it just came on in random play in my iTunes?)
  
  
• Will I ever be satisfied and completely happy in my life?

That's it for now. For those that have read along, try not to peer too far into the cracks and crevices of my mind now that I opened it up here for all of you to see.